I want...to be part of something big

If you have ever been part of a club, sport, music group, or any activity that has people working to reach a specific goal then you understand that it takes everyone's effort, right? It stinks if your that person that works super hard and wants to reach that goal so badly and there are people in your group that just slack off. I am that person. Now i am not hinting to any group i am in or talking about any person! Im not mad or hateful towards anyone or anything. Plus you readers might not even know what im talking about. So let me just get some things out:)

I work hard and i care alot for the activities i participate in! Even when i want to quit...even when im tired or frustrated, I dont. Sometimes i do back away and dont give 150% but that might be because i was just giving 150% at my last activity. But anyways....im in those activities because i chose to be so i will work hard. I do not understand people that really want to be in a group then do nothing! Why dont they quit? Im really confused about that.

Whenever I'm in this group, i look around and see people who dont even care! they just act like its no big deal. There are some people that do actually care and it stinks that we are the 1% to the 99%. Some days this group just really angers me and i hate it. I wish i was more loving and compassionate but when i really care about something im not going to let things slide past me. I want to be the best and i want to work hard. On those days i want to quit. I know i can quit but what fair is that to the other people that do want to get better...im throwing them under the bus. If they endure the pain then so can I. I see these other clubs that are really good and they work hard all the time and i just think to myself that I am one of them just trapped in this body forced to be in this club cause its in my surroundings. I do love my group though. They are really great people that have other things to do than dedicate their lives to this activity but you have to care a little. Right now i dont see enough people to care. When we have a big event coming up....i know we will do awful cause that is just the way we work.

I guess what im trying to say is....when you want to be part of something big, work for it! Never let things get handed to you. If you want to be a part of something, show that you want to be in it everyday as if you were about to get kicked out or off a team. If you dont like it, then quit!

YOU run your life because you only have one life to live. I choose to live my life to the greatest even if that means i have to hit my head against a wall every day.